Monday, March 22

a solution? maybe?

Okay, so in my last post, I was less than enthused about my current situation at work. Okay, okay, I was PISSED! haha. I spent the weekend in Fort Collins trying to de-stress, and it didn't really work. I spent the nights struggling to sleep because I kept thinking about the issue. But our weekend was nice. My brother was home from the Marines for a few days, so we got to hang out with him a little bit. And the funniest thing happened Saturday night though! We took Gryffy and Penny over to Keyan/Jason/etc's house for a puppy play date. 8 puppies! Yep, all under 2 yrs old! It was a freaking riot. My dogs, of course, were the shit-starting instigators...embarrassing...but it was still fun. I'll have to try to get the pictures of all of them sitting waiting for a tennis ball to be thrown! It was such a sight! 

Today was great though, because I met with our nurse manager to talk about options for getting hours. I'm going to pick up extra shifts on another floor (med surg...ick...but I gotta work) as well as work some day shifts at work. So it'll be kind of a crazy schedule of shifts mish-mashed together, but hopefully I can rebuild my bank account - which has dwindled to a sad, sad state. I'm going to work as many shifts as I can with the hopes of Hawaii becoming a reality this summer! So I'm in a much better state of mind today :) I actually need to start winding down and go to sleep soon because I work 7am-7pm tomorrow! Days - weird! 

So there's my little update - thanks for your support when I was down, and I hope everyone's Monday was good!!


Friday, March 19

my patience is running out...VERY quickly

As most of you know, I have a job that I really like. I work at a hospital on the mom/baby floor, taking care of the mothers after they deliver as well as the newborns in the well baby nursery. It is so much fun! I LOVE my coworkers, too, which I think makes all the difference in the world at a job. My pay is okay, the benefits are what is the problem? As most of you also know, if there are not many babies, then I am S.O.L. and my shifts get canceled. Sometimes I am lucky and other places in the hospital need me, so I float to other floors to work. This is usually awesome because I get so much experience in other areas of medicine. And I am okay with one shift being canceled per paycheck (two weeks). But this week was a whole new ball game, not one I'm ready or willing to play...I was supposed to work Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday (12 hr nights)...and I got canceled for EVERYTHING except 4 hours last night. Going from 36 hours to 4 hours on my paycheck isn't something small and insignificant. I ran out of PTO a long time ago...I feel like crying. 

I know everything happens for a reason, but I'm just wondering what God's message to me is right now. On the one hand, Tyler has been on Spring Break this week, and maybe I wasn't supposed to work so that I could spend some much needed time with him. On the other hand, maybe this is supposed to be the last straw in a series of frustrating times of being canceled from work. But this is just ridiculous. I can't be expected to be okay with it. I don't know what to do. Supposedly the slow season ends mid - April, but that still doesn't make this okay. If all you need is help May - November, then hire a seasonal CNA! I was planning on working here until hopefully getting into PA school in one year...but that means enduring another slow season of work from Nov - April next year. And who's to say I'm going to even get into PA school next year. 

I am sad, angry, and confused. Do I get a second job so I can have some sort of paycheck? But what about when work picks up and then I'd have to work 2 jobs. Do I start the hunt for a new job altogether? I suppose I could. It's just all so daunting. I finally feel like I know what's going on at work (got the job in September), and the thought of starting all that all over again just sucks. Do I just stick it out? I have been painting, and I have been thinking of setting up something on Etsy where I could sell some stuff. I'm currently painting for Sydnie's nursery, and it's really fun, so maybe have nursery/kids' room art for sale? But I have no idea how to even start that or anything, so I don't know. 

Bottom line is this, I'm frustrated and conflicted. Tyler doesn't want me to stress because technically we have his loans to live off of. It's not like I'm skipping meals because I can't afford to eat. It's interesting to feel the pressure of the provider of a family. Especially since I have two chomping puppy mouths to feed on top of it all. I'm just so worn out by this game of not knowing whether I'll have any work this week. But living off of loans isn't ideal, and it means we don't have the extra income we had planned on. That gorgeous romantic trip to Hawaii Tyler and I were going to take in August? Yeah. Not going to happen. This summer Tyler gets 10 days off from school things, and he doesn't get any more summers off for the next 3 years, so I was really hoping Hawaii would be our thing we could do together since we won't have the opportunity to travel together anytime in the near future.

Sorry if this sounds so negative. 
I'm just worn, and I don't know what to do. 

Tuesday, March 16

shoes, glorious shoes

Any of you know the musical Oliver? Any of you know the song that goes, "Food, glorious food!" Well, it's a true story that yesterday upon getting home from a fabulous day of shopping with my sidekick sister, I sang "Shoes, glorious shoes!!!" at the top of my lungs to the tune of Oliver's song. haha. So I renewed my vow to work out more last Weds, and my goal was to work out 5 days in a row. I did it! So I decided I needed a prize. I've been going out here and there in Denver, and I have realized I don't own very many cute and functional pairs of high heels. It's not Fort Collins' Trailhead, where you can wear sweatpants and it's fine. This is Denver, where the girls I go out with get decked out head to toe (H2T - thanks, Tyra!). So, we drove to Fort Collins yesterday because Tyler wanted to brew beer with his dad and brothers. Did I want to join in all the brewing fun? No thanks. Would I like to go high heel shopping instead? Why, I think I would like that very much, please. 

Lindsey and I started out at DSW. I haven't had luck here before, but perhaps that is because I have always gone with a very specific shoe in mind. This time, the rules were: 
1. Cute
2. High heels
3. Zero pain (I made a deal with Tyler that for every $10 the shoes cost, I would walk in them for a minute, just to make sure they didn't hurt within those few minutes)
 There were no "maybes". Either perfect or not. And my sister-turned-drill-sergeant made me stick to the rules. So, at DSW, the first pair my sister found were teal close-toed cloth pumps made by Rocket Dog (they make heels?!?!).
Successful pair #2 are Madden Girl black open toed T heels with ruffles along the T. Literally too comfortable for words. Too bad I can't wear them to work.

Pair #3 are Chinese Laundry strappy heels that channel sandals and will look so cute with sundresses! Also ridiculously COMFORTABLE despite the 4 inch + heels.
Note the zipper in the back!

After great and unexpected success, we tried Famous Footwear. Nothing caught my eye so we bounced to the mall. Macy's had some lovely black pumps by JSimpson and Guess. But of course they were out of my size in the one's by Jessica, and the Guess ones felt terrible. On to Journey's! I found a beautiful pair of sequined black close-toed pumps. LOVE THEM! Comfortable too! The girl who works their says she wears them to 12-hour days at motorcycle rallies - surely they'll work for a 6 hour night on the town, then?!?! 
Yes -that is a purple lining

Lastly, we went to Old town because I had a gift card to the Cupboard left over from our WEDDING! Yes, it was almost a year ago! Haha. I got some fun tools for Tyler - a meat injecter, a meat tenderizer, and a meat thermometer. Can you tell he likes to cook meat? And I got us some SUPER cute mojito glasses, stirrers, and white balsamic vinegar because we needed it for a recipe and I couldn't find it at a regular grocery store. So that was fun! 

Then we hit our last shoe stop. Cira. Love that place for shoes! And I found the most sky-high adorable floral peep toe heels! I think they may be my favorite!!!
So this must be love. Super sexy love. 

So yes, I did get 5 pairs of high heels. Silly? Maybe. But I really have needed more of a variety for a VERY long time. And I thought I would have to spend more to get high quality, but I only spent $200 for all 5 pairs. I don't think I did too shabby :)

*Disclaimer: I don't mean for this post to be a bragfest...I just realized it kind of sounds like that. I'm just super stoked to have the new shoes and proud that I got them at kind of a deal!

Now, in a few weeks for a prize I get to get 2 pairs of wedges, I have decided! Gotta work out 5 days/week for 2 weeks to earn those!

Which brand/style of heels do you recommend for someone wanting to be cute yet practical?

Cheers to shoes!!!

chicken pot pie = YUM!

Hey friends - so I am making Chicken Pot Pie for dinner tonight! This recipe is SO easy (takes a little over an hour including cook time), SO healthy (300 cals/cup), and absolutely tasty! 

Makes 8 servings of 1 cup

12 oz frozen mixed veggies
3 tbsp flour
1/2 tsp salt
1/4 tsp poultry seasoning
1/4 tsp pepper
1 1/4 cups skim milk
1/2 cup finely chopped onion
1 can condensed 98% fat free cream of chicken soup
1/4 cup fat free sour cream
4 boneless skinless chicken breasts (1 1/4 lb), cooked, cut into bite-size pieces (4 cups)
1 Pillsbury refrigerated pie crust 

1. Cook and drain veggies as directed on bag (I use the steamers! Take 5 mins in the microwave)
2. Heat oven to 375 degrees. In 2 qt saucepan (I use larger because I'm messy), mix flour, salt, poultry seasoning, pepper, and milk with whisk until blended. Stir in onion. Cook over medium heat for 4 - 6 minutes, stirring constantly, until thickened. 
3. Stir in soup and sour cream. Add chicken and cooked vegetables; mix well. Cook, stirring frequently until thoroughly heated. Pour into ungreased 2 qt round casserole. Unroll pie crust; place over hot filling. Seal edge and flute as desired. Cut slits into several places in crust. 
4. Bake 35 - 40 minutes or until crust is golden brown and mixture is bubbly. Let stand 10 minutes before serving. 

I hope you all make this easy and delicious dinner! If you do - let me know how you like it!


Friday, March 12

a good start

Okay, so I did a great cardio workout Wednesday - which was the kick start to my new fitness "regime" - if you will ;) . Yesterday I ate really well, then went to the gym and warmed up for Body Pump with some stairs and elliptical. Body Pump KiLLeD, as usual! My hamstrings are already starting to feel sore this morning...oh crap. So after this post I'm going to hit the gym before I get too sore! haha. 

I just wanted to share a new plan I have. While Tyler really enjoys eating healthfully, I know there are sometimes some things he would like to eat that I am basically scared to cook because I know I will eat too much of it. Case in point: this morning is his last final before Spring Break, and seeing as how I woke at 2:30am and couldn't go back to sleep, I decided to cook for him. His FAVORITE breakfast is potatoes and eggs. I ADORE me some potatoes and eggs, too. But the potatoes are kind of greasy, and I usually wind up eat a heaping mound of them and dipping them in WAY too much ketchup. So, to avoid all of this, I decided to add bacon to the potatoes because I don't like bacon very much. I can only eat it every once in a while, and we had turkey BLTs last night for dinner, so I am already over bacon for the next few months. Plan worked perfectly! I smelled the bacon and had zero desire to eat those naughty potatoes! Instead, I had clementine wedges with toasted coconut and eggs with tomatoes. 

I am very satisfied with this :)
So now do I just add bacon to everything I shouldn't eat? Pizza? Maybe. Ice cream? Nah.

Happy Friday to you!

Thursday, March 11

fresh determination

I posted a while ago that I had started slacking on working out...and sadly, I have to admit that the slacking has continued. I've started counting walking the dogs as a work out - which it is not! Yes, it's better than nothing, and I'm sure it'd be fine for trying to maintain your weight, but it doesn't count if you're trying to lose weight! I'm so frustrated with myself! So I am facing my laziness and telling it to "shoo" because I don't have time to be lazy anymore! It's getting warmer which means I have to expose parts of my body that I prefer to keep hidden and covered up. I believe that the human body is a beautiful thing and I want to be proud of my arms instead of trying to hide my triceps. I want to feel confident and carefree at the pool instead of trying to keep bulges hidden beneath a towel or a beach coverup. So there it is. I have confronted the issue and am moving forward with a new determination. The end goal being: to be proud of myself and feel confident. Because confidence radiates beauty. I can do this. I am going to pick up blogging more frequently because it keeps me motivated knowing I have to report back to you all what my activity level has been like. I am going to start being more diligent about my food journal. And I am going to aim to sweat 5 days a week (lately it's been more like 2...but that's in the past now!). There you have it. Those are my means to get to that goal of warm-weather confidence. I promise to reward my hardwork weekly with a prize like a cute tank top or music from iTunes. And I promise to keep you posted...thanks for hanging with me, everyone!


Wednesday, March 10

a sun kissed time

This whole week has just felt sun-kissed to me! I worked Wednesday and Thursday and was low volumed on Friday - yay! I took the opportunity to actually do something for myself - and went to the gym! Then I decided to be social and went out with some girls for a girls' night birthday celebration! My oh-so-sweet husband dropped me off downtown (with puppies in tow, of course!) and we had a lot of fun! I hardly ever go out, and this was a much needed night of girl time! 
I ended up having a good ole' fashioned sleepover at Whitney's - which was fun! So much girl talk...which when drunk leads to deep heartfelt confessions, reminiscing about high school, and too many tears. Haha. Saturday morning I FINALLY tried Snooze for the first time. I had never even heard about Snooze until I moved to Denver, and then it was the only breakfast place that anyone ever talked about! People looked at me like I was crazy when I said I had never eaten there. It was similar to how I react if someone from Fort Collins says they have never eaten at Big City Burrito (which is sheer craziness, by the way, because we all know who makes the world's best burrito...). It was really yummy - and the pomegranite mimosa helped the hangover, for sure ;)
 At breakfast

Tyler picked me up from Whitney's, then I came home for day of relaxation in the sun. I'm not too picky about where/how I'm in the sun, as long as I'm basking in it (and no, I'm not advocating for skin cancer - always wear sunscreen!). Since we don't have any lounge chairs, I brought Penny's dog bed outside and lounged on it. Ha. Tyler was amused and took a photo to document (no, I'm not posting it - it's REAL unflattering, just trust me). And the dogs were just plain confused. They circled me, sniffed me, and pawed at me. Penny cried a few times until she realized I wasn't about to budge from my cozy place on her bed. They settled in beside me and we dozed for an hour. It was glorious :) Although, after sleeping on the bed, I decided it needed to be smelled of peanut butter from their kongs. Once I was able (took quite a bit of resting...), we took the doggies on a walk. See, I knew I'd be such a better mom once the weather was better!

After the walk we napped the evening away, then got dressed in our best duds and went to an 80s party that a nurse from work was having! I went as an 80s prom and Tyler was kind of 80s prom but then didn't really turn out that way. Either way, we were 80s through and through.
Now, I am SUCH a fan of theme parties!!! Sometimes I wonder if the only reason I stuck with rugby over the college years was for the incredible theme parties we threw! Not really - I loved the sport and my teammates :) but seriously, we threw rad parties. Here are pictures from our Gangster, Pirate, and Pretty Pretty Princess parties:
I think a party of rugby girls dressed as princesses was my favorite!!!

Anyways...Sunday was momentous for us - we took the puppies to a dog park for the first time! We found a free fenced in park only about 10 minutes from where we live, so that is awesome! If you haven't gathered from my previous posts about Penny...she actually thinks she is a princess. I'm serious. She thinks Tyler and I are her servants and that Gryffin is a high-tech toy we got for her. She does what she wants, pretty much. We do try to make her behave, and she'll do it, but not without mouthing off. She is also so very Alpha with anyone we meet. No matter that she is only 32 lbs, she takes on dogs who are 100+ lbs like they're a chihuahua. Ridiculous. So, while we were excited for this outing, we were actually pretty sure we were going to get kicked out and have to run awkwardly and embarrasedly away with our yipping and misbehaving little mongrels happily at our heals. Holding our breath, we walked into the dog park. After about 30 seconds of watching the dozens of dogs running around, and Penny and Gryffin surprisingly remaining calm about the situation, we nervously took off their leashes. Instead of immediately darting away from us, they hung out by us and started doing a lap of the perimeter of the park. They happily greeted each and every human and dog they came across, no aggression whatsoever! And no humping from Gryffin! Double success! We were there for over an hour before the pups started to slow down (and by slow down I mean jogging instead of racing everywhere). Our babies did great - and I was SO proud to not be kicked out of the dog park on our first visit!
Tongues out = tired and blissful!
After the dog park I decided to go shopping at Costco for the first time. If you remember, I signed up for our Costco membership last week. I was only going for the necessities - paper towels, toilet paper, snacks for the Oscars...and a book...and a 13-pack of Chapstick (!?!? Amazing deal, I assure you)...and a 3-pack of mascara (which I needed for reals). $250 and an hour of walking around the gargantuan warehouse with wide eyes later, I made it out alive and well.

I made it home just in time for Colleen and Ollie to arrive for an Oscars play date! Colleen brought the vino and I had the snacks - and we enjoyed hours of cheering for Sandra Bullock, The Hurt Locker, and Avatar, making fun of George Clooney's really weird facial expressions, and oohing and aahing over the gorgeous gowns. I was a little mad that the dresses these people wear on a night out were that beautiful, but whatever, because I am planning on going to Forever 21 this weekend. Take that, Hollywood. 2 bottles of wine later, we said goodbye to our friends and we went to bed. But I did insist on Penny staying the night in our bed with us. haha. Oops. Good thing Tyler knows just when to not argue, but roll his eyes, sigh, and kiss me on the forehead. Even when I'm being a completely tipsy, stubborn, giggling idiot. Love him :)

I worked Monday night and got sent home at 3am. I was really excited because I was exhausted. I was asleep by 4am and had 8 hours of glorious sleep in by noon! But of course I slept til 2pm...just for good measure. I woke up and planned meals with Tyler. Did I mention he gave up CHEESE for Lent?!?! Sheesh. So we've been trying to find decent food that doesn't have cheese in it (I'm not entirely sure that exists). Here's what we came up with: bratwursts with sauerkraut, curried split pea soup, corn and buttermilk soup with tomato corn relish, BLTs, and chicken coconut curry soup. Apparently I'm into soups this week. I'm also planning on making myself cream cheese and cucumber sandwiches, YUM. LOVE FOOD.

At the grocery store I also picked up some lovely daffodils that caught my eye on the way to the check out. They are so sunny and beautiful - I couldn't resist them! Plus at $1.48 for a bundle - how can you refuse? So I got two, duh, and now they look so lovely on our table!
Tuesday night at work was fine - it was a little sad because we had two demises - or babies who had passed away in utero and the moms still had to labor and deliver them. So many things about my job make me so scared to have babies...So tonight, I should have been at work a few hours ago but I was low volumed for the first 4 hours. So I'll see at 9pm if they need me. Hopefully they do because we are low on the $$Moneys$$. After blogging I'm heading to the gym, where I plan to get my cardio on and hopefully watch Modern Family if it is playing on one of the screens!

Tyler has his finals tomorrow and Friday, and I am SO looking forward to him having a true Spring Break! Saturday we are planning on going to the dog park again and Saturday night we are seeing Chelsea Handler from Chelsea Lately - and I cannot wait! She is such a hilarious woman! Sunday we have designated as "Cuddle Day" - and I am so excited! We get to rent movies and catch up on lounging together on the couch! Yay! It's going to be a wonderful weekend :) 

Sooooo...I'm realizing that I should really blog more frequently instead of these RIDICULOUSLY long blogs once every 10 bad. Thanks for bearing with me, and I'll try to do better! Happy Wednesday evening, everyone :)

Cheers - to you and yours -

Monday, March 1

random can be good, right?

Heylooooo. So today I have been completely lazy and it has been so great! Just doing laundry and getting stuff done around the house during commercials of crap tv shows. haha. Ideal ;) My puppies were terrorizing each other and the house until about 2:30pm when they finally decided to take a nap. Damn, it's been about 2 hours and I'm sure they will be awake and fully refreshed and RECHARGED any minute now. I think I forgot to post my latest here it is :)


And how was everyone's weekend? Mine was actually really eventful! Friday afternoon one of my friends Becky came up to hang out. This was QUITE a treat because she has been one of my best friends since junior high, was in my wedding last April, and then we haven't truly hung out since my wedding. Booooo. 
So it was REALLY great to catch up! Then we went to dinner at the Samba Room with Ashley and Joedy and made a girls' night out of it! I totally recommend Samba Room! It's a Cuban restaurant downtown with fantastic mojitos!!! 
Becky, me, Ashley, Joedy :)
Love it. We then hit a few bars - Atomic Cowboy and Rock Bar. SO much fun! I happened to meet up with a girl I lived next to in the dorms and haven't seen in ages! 
Hi Megan!!!
Tyler came and picked us up at last call (love him!) along with the babies! Someone threw up in the car on the way home...and no it wasn't seems little Gryffin may have some carsickness issues because this is the third time he has gotten sick in the car. Poor guy. 

Saturday I slept til't done that in forever!!! Very nice! Then just relaxed with Tyler until dinner at Mimi's Cafe (YUM) with Tyler's aunt and uncle. They are so sweet and we love going to dinner with them! Tyler's uncle wants to wrestle alligators and I offered him practice on Penny. If you can catch her and pin her in our backyard, then I'm sure you can take on a little ole' gator ;) 

Sunday Tyler and I went to church with Manuel&Andrew. Lots of fun! We haven't gone to any churches down here yet (pathetic, I know...). It honestly has been on my list of things to do ever since we have moved! My excuse is that working every other Saturday night does not make me energetic to go to a new church on Sunday morning! Just laziness, I suppose. But it was a great contemporary service with a band at a church that preaches about acceptance and love - just my style :)

After church we went to brunch at Sam's #3 downtown. It is the third in the chain to open (hence the name) and it was delicious! Mandrew claims it's their new brunch diner they loved it so much. After brunch we were driving home through Cherry Creek where I saw The Container Store. I remarked, "Oooh, I've always wanted to go in there," to which Manuel replied, "Good girl! There's the green light I was lookin' for!" And he promptly turned into the parking lot. Haha. The truth is, I had been avoiding the store because I have a natural affinity for organization, and I thought the store might bring out some inner crazy Martha and I would go on a storage container shopping frenzy. Luckily Tyler was there. We only made one purchase - a lovely magazine/newspaper bin for our coffee table. But I was this close to buying a dog food bin. I would have if it were on sale, but I couldn't justify spending $45 on a dog food bin. Even though it had two openings. And a built in clip to hang the dog food scoop on. And lovely little doggie decals on the sides of the bin...oh crap, I'm probably going back to purchase it soon, aren't I? 

After our impulsive swerve into the Container Store, we really were headed home. Until we saw a sign for an estate sale. We all decided we'd really like to go to one because we'd never been to one and it sounded like fun! Plus we could look for unique little treasure. Unfortunately, it was like when people don't take down the signs for the garage sale that happened a day ago. Which - PS - is a huge pet peeve of mine! If you are going to put up garage sale signs - then go take them down after it's over! I could sue you for false advertising. Maybe. Somehow. Plus it'll just become litter to our poor Mother Earth. Clearly, there was no estate sale :( Boo.  

So we were really on our way home this time. Until we saw Costco and I said, "I've been meaning to go there for  forever to get a membership!" Mandrew decide they'd like some samples, so we pull into the Costco parking lot. We tour the facility and all it had to offer and I went to get my membership while the boys got nourishment in the form of ice cream and hot dogs. I'm really stoked to have a membership there! But I'm also really nervous at how much I'm going to spend...good thing the lady at the membership counter conned kindly talked me into upgrading my membership (for only $50!) to the one where I get 2% of my purchases back at the end of the year. So it all makes the spending okay, you see?!?! I already have a list of completely necessary things I need to return for. 

Listen to me - I sound like a shopaholic! Which makes sense considering I am reading the Shopaholic series! I read Confessions of a Shopaholic last year, and have wanted to read the rest of the series ever since then! It is a frothy and hilarious series of books with a main character whose neurotic behaviors crack me up! Thank goodness I don't compulsively lie like the protagonist does...but maybe I do compulsively buy if I don't watch myself! The most dangerous thing Tyler ever said to me was, "Well, you make all the money, you can buy whatever you want!" My jaw dropped and I told him to never say such things again unless he wanted to seriously see what I was capable of! haha. 

So yes, I finally finished The Pillars of the Earth by Ken Follet. All 976 pages. Sheesh. 500 pages through, I just wanted to be done with it! Don't get me wrong, it was a good book. It was set in England during the 1100s (a time period in which I LOVE), and the character development was incredible. That was the bulk of the book. I got really really into the plight of the good guys and hoping for the bad guys to all get what was coming to them. If you have some time, I recommend it. If you don't like rapes depicted down the last detail, then don't read it. Because that happens for too often than I ever cared to read. Ever. In my lifetime. And it was all packaged in one book. 

After the severity of that book, I decided I needed something fun and bubbly, so Tyler and I went to Barnes & Noble and I purchased the rest of the Shopaholic series. I also purchased Chasing Harry Winston by Lauren Weisberger (auther of the Devil Wears Prada) and the third book to the Wicked series. Yes, I bought 6 books in one trip, but I had a gift card from my birthday! And if you're going to splurge on something, I figure books are okay. 

This post has been kind of rambling about, and I hope I haven't come across as frenetic or anything! Things just kept coming to me!

SO looking forward to the bachelor finale tonight! Eeek! I have a feeling in the pit of my stomach that Vienna will be the winner, but I love Tenley. I actually would like to be her best friend. She seems so positive, despite all that's happened to her! Some quotes the girls she lived with in the Bachelor house have said about her, 
"The girl shits rainbows" - Gia
"She probably dreams in cartoons...I'm just sayin'!" - Vienna
"She fell out of a Disney movie" - Jessie
Love it! Go Tenley! If she doesn't win - I wish her someone with a love for life and a heart of gold just like she has!